19th August 1984 - In Loving Memory of my late grandmother, Jamilah

These are the only pictures i have of my late grandmother

I was only 7 yrs old when my maternal grandmother passed away. She used to console me whenever my uncles & aunties made me cry. She was the best grandmother i ever had.

Her demise was a great loss. That was the first time i saw someone died in front of my eyes. I remember on the day she passed away, i was crying and imitate like what i saw on TV. I told my grandmother over and over, not to leave me. I only know that if someone passed away, i have to cry and say those words. I even went up to my grandfather and asked "Grandmother just passed away isn't it? Why aren't you crying?" He didn't say a word and cried. At that time, i just couldn't understand what was actually happening. But when i think back, i'm glad that i had 7 years to get to know her. I don't remember much but i know she was the best.

My family and i have not gathered much information about her past and her origin. All we know is that she was adopted by a childless malay lady, my step-great-grandmother who passed away when i was 12. Neighbours told us that my grandmother's parents gave her away. We were also told that her father is Chinese and her mother is Japanese. No one knows for sure. But if this is true, it’s no wonder that she has a mix of Chinese and Japanese features. I even inherited her Chinese eyes. Hehe…

When i watched Full Circle's first episode, i thought it's pretty common to give their children away especially during those difficult times. Target - childless couples. Sounds similiar.

Prayers will be sent to keep your soul at ease...