Realisation and Love
It’s been tough since the arrival of our son. There’s so much to do…so much to think about. Maybe because of the lack of sleep, maybe because I was too tired taking care of Raed the whole day. I get too emotional and little things can make me really mad or sad.
I admit I took things too hard even though NOW I know there’s nothing to fuss about. My mother was really concerned about the well being of her daughter, son-in-law and grandson. Who doesn’t want things to go well? On my part I should’ve explained to her what to expect if the event was done in a mosque. After talking to her yesterday, I knew she just wanted the best for everyone. I feel guilty immediately. I shouldn’t have given her a face and complaining to darling about the whole thing. I knew she didn’t mean what she said the other day. She’s my mother and I’ve lived with her for almost 31 years. How can I not know her?
I know she’s trying her best ever since darling started living in this house. No matter what, she’ll try to cook delicious meals for darling everyday. The food that she cook wasn’t meant for me, it was for him. Well, I can eat anything. I dun really mind if there’s no food and she knows that. And when I told her that darling loved her ‘sambal belachan’, the next day I saw it on the kitchen cabinet. That’s how much she loved her son-in-law coz she never had a son. And because he’s a new person living in this house, my mother has been really careful about what she cooks every single day. Even when I was expecting, she did so many things coz I was really having so much backache and it was difficult for me to move around. Sometimes she helped with the laundry and cleaning my bedroom. Even till now, she’s helping me to wash the baby’s clothes and helping me to take care of Raed when I’m doing some chores. Well, she enjoys taking care of Raed and I can see how happy she is when holding him in her arms.
Like what darling said to me,"She’s your one and only mother!" And no one can replace her.
"Sorry mom coz I’ve been a bad daughter. Only when I’m calm, I began to realise your sacrifices and your love for us. You just didn’t show it but I know in your heart, you loved us a lot."
I hope that someday darling can love my mom just like I did. It would mean a lot to me. And I just wanted this house to be filled with so much love. I’m sure baby Raed will help us to build up this love coz a baby is always a blessing and there’s supposed to be so much joy taking care of him.
I love you mom! And I’ll never do anything to hurt you again.
I admit I took things too hard even though NOW I know there’s nothing to fuss about. My mother was really concerned about the well being of her daughter, son-in-law and grandson. Who doesn’t want things to go well? On my part I should’ve explained to her what to expect if the event was done in a mosque. After talking to her yesterday, I knew she just wanted the best for everyone. I feel guilty immediately. I shouldn’t have given her a face and complaining to darling about the whole thing. I knew she didn’t mean what she said the other day. She’s my mother and I’ve lived with her for almost 31 years. How can I not know her?
I know she’s trying her best ever since darling started living in this house. No matter what, she’ll try to cook delicious meals for darling everyday. The food that she cook wasn’t meant for me, it was for him. Well, I can eat anything. I dun really mind if there’s no food and she knows that. And when I told her that darling loved her ‘sambal belachan’, the next day I saw it on the kitchen cabinet. That’s how much she loved her son-in-law coz she never had a son. And because he’s a new person living in this house, my mother has been really careful about what she cooks every single day. Even when I was expecting, she did so many things coz I was really having so much backache and it was difficult for me to move around. Sometimes she helped with the laundry and cleaning my bedroom. Even till now, she’s helping me to wash the baby’s clothes and helping me to take care of Raed when I’m doing some chores. Well, she enjoys taking care of Raed and I can see how happy she is when holding him in her arms.
Like what darling said to me,"She’s your one and only mother!" And no one can replace her.
"Sorry mom coz I’ve been a bad daughter. Only when I’m calm, I began to realise your sacrifices and your love for us. You just didn’t show it but I know in your heart, you loved us a lot."
I hope that someday darling can love my mom just like I did. It would mean a lot to me. And I just wanted this house to be filled with so much love. I’m sure baby Raed will help us to build up this love coz a baby is always a blessing and there’s supposed to be so much joy taking care of him.
I love you mom! And I’ll never do anything to hurt you again.
2 Comments:
"Syurga itu dibawah telapak kaki ibu" -- I think mommies always want the best for their child or what they THINK is the best. With that, since u're a mommy now, I guess you would be able to think just like yr own mom in years to come!
Alhamdulillah and congrats on yr birth of ur son. May u and yr family are always in the best of health =)
Thanks Duan!
Yah, u are right! Once I've become a mom, I've began to realise the sacrifices my mom had to make, raising me and my sis. I'm so fortunate and blessed. :)
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