WAR!

I'm totally fumed because someone used my name and comment shitty things at Moddie's blog. Initially, i wrote this "epsych: juz ignore these ppl moddie!!" with genuine intentions.

Gosh, i don't believe these people can be so immature. And naturally, i have to defend myself and this childish games has got to STOP!! Whoever wrote this "epsych: Moddie has to be the dumbest most stupid name i have ever heard. Or is it a short form for mohd.in that case. i m sorry." at Moddie's blog will get his/her retribution soon. As for this Ismail, stay there in the darkest pit. You'll be happier there! I bet it must be the same person.

With effect from today 31.8.05, 1pm sharp, i SWORE not to comment anything on anyone's blog...not even mine!! So if you ever see any comments with my name, that must be a GHOST!

I vomitted...AGAIN!!

I don't believe this!!! I vomitted in the cab last night! The last time i vomitted in a cab was maybe 2 decades ago but i didn't mess up the seat then. Gosh...last night was a MESS! I told darling that i was really full up to my throat but i didn't expect it to turn out this way. Furthermore, the cab ride was like a roller coaster. It's like the cab driver was rushing for something. And that probably must have somewhat contributed to the whole nausea thing.

But sadly, there's only one paper bag available at that time and my hand automatically grabbed the bag and there i went filling it up. I wasn't fast enough to take out what was in the bag. It was darling's birthday present from his friend. *sob sob* When i got home, i looked at the tie and it's all soaked up in my puke, covered with the gummy, slimy spagetti bolognaise i had earlier. I'm so sad, very very sad! But i already send it for dry cleaning this morning.

When i got home last night, i had to squat with my head in the toilet bowl and threw up the rest of my puke. My parents were not home yet. So i felt like i was surviving on my own. I didn't realise that tears trickled down my cheeks at that time till i'm done.

Now, i'm at home resting - MC. I went to work but my head was spinning and the headache is killing me. The doc didn't want to give me an MC but i asked for it. I think i would faint if i continue working. Anyway, how would the nausea pills help, huh? I told the doc that my head is spinning and i'm having a headache. Maybe she didn't believe me. Stupid doc!

2 things that will make me throw up:-

a) Sitting right at the back of the bus after dinner.
b) Over eat - coz my stomach is really that small!

So the lesson here is don't eat cockles when i'm full. Then today, my dad told me that he cannot eat mussels coz it will make him puke. And my mom went,"Why did u eat a lot when you know you can't?" What can i say...

Oh, my O2 Mini...

Sob..sob..my O2 XDA II Mini just DIED!! It was about 5.30pm this afternoon. I was supposed to meet Grace at Bugis. So, I was sending her an sms but after i clicked the 'send' button, the whole screen just dissolved like milo in hot water. I was so panicky, tried to charge but there's a red light, and not the usual orange light. So i picked up my headset and called Grace from my call master and told her that my O2 just went dead. So since i was going to Bugis, i decided to drop by Hello@Bugis to check whether it's the battery problem. Guess wat? It is the battery problem. That was a relief. And as long as it's not the handset problem, i'm cool! Next, will have to find time to visit the service centre to repair the battery or get it replaced.

When i reached home at 11.15pm (traffic jam at orchard road!), i picked up my old Nokia 6600 and inserted my sim card to check if there's any messages. I have 3 and 1 missed call. The thing is that when there's nothing wrong with the handphone, no one wants to sms me. And times like this, i have people sending me urgent messages. But now it's too late to reply. They are probably in dreamland right now!

Had dinner, then RUSHED to school. I was half hour late. 4th module: Principles of Social Psychology. I thought that this module is not that difficult but i was wrong. After 1 lesson, i went home with a headache. Really! No joke! There's too much information all cramped up in my brain. At one point, i was staring at the lecturer and went totally blank. I went zombie for 30 seconds.

Darling, can you massage my temples?

P.S. I got to know that my uncle rosli's father passed away this friday morning. Inalillah wainnailaihi roji'uun...Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmatNya. Amin.

Happy Birthday Darling!

Age is something that doesn't matter, unless you are a cheese - Billie Burke
Happy Birthday...Darling! Muacks...



Darling, this one's for you... :o)




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I want to remember this day...

Today, 3 years ago, i met R for the first time. Can you believe it darling? Time really flies. Although i've met him before, when my parents and i went to his house during Hari Raya, but it was all a blurr. When i close my eyes, i can still picture him walking towards me and smiling. I looove that smile. I immediately fell in love with it, even till today. That was when i knew it was him. Thanks to my dad and his dad. If it weren't for them, i wouldn't be with R now.

I hope there'll be many more sweet moments to come...Muaaacks!!

Principles of Psychology II & The Goonies

Last night was the first class. I cannot believe that i'm already on my second semester. 2 1/2 mths was fast. I'm already informed on the deadline for the assignment - 30 October 2005. I must start early this time. Cannot afford to take anymore annual leave. Anyway, this time we'll be studying biology. It'll be tough for me because i didn't study biology during my secondary school days. I sat in front of the class because the class was full when i step in. But it was so darn interesting! Again, Mr Naidu, made really funny jokes that made me want to laugh out loud. I guess there are some newbies in class, so there weren't many people laughing. Why? So boring man! No sense of humour at all!

Anyways, today i went for my shopping spree...alone! I bought stuff that's been on hold since a couple of months ago. I dropped by HMV to check out whether they have the movie 'The Goonies'. I've been searching that VCD for soooo long. TMS, Laser Flair, Sembawang, they don't have it. But now i got a copy from HMV. I was so happy that i went home and watched it immediately. It was my favourite movie, it's a 1985 classic! I remember watching this movie when i was in primary school. Now, it's been exactly 20 years. And i read that they are working on 'The Goonies 2: Goonies Never Say Die'. All casts will reunite. I can't wait!

The Amazing Race 8 & Godmother

Check out the The Amazing Race 8! The youngest is only 8 years old! Can you believe it? I can't...

Updated: 5.15pm

My really close friend is getting married soon and i couldn't attend her wedding in Philippines. My parents disapprove! I know, i know, i'm a big girl now but i'm still living under my parents' roof, or i'd say under their armpit! So i still have to listen to them. :o( Anyway, FCC (sounds like TCC huh!) told me that she wants me to become her baby's godmother. I know it's kinda weird because i don't practice it. I believe only the chinese and catholics has this culture. Am i right? I really dunno.

But it'll be really nice wouldn't it?

The Dream Game

I'm feeling a little something. Something that makes me a little nervous. Maybe because of the dream i had 2 nights ago. It seemed so real. I want it to be real. It was just perfect. The setting, the words are absolutely perfect. Oh, my heart just melts right there. Nothing can describe how i felt at that time. Even after i jerked myself awake, i still felt it really did happen.

By the way, the dream is not XXX rated. ;o)

In Love With You ~ Regine Velasquez featuring Jacky Cheung

~

just a gentle whisper, told me that you’d gone

leaving only memories, where did we go wrong

I couldn’t find the words then, so let me say them now

I’m still in love with you

tell me that you love me, tell me that you care

tell me that you need me, and I’ll be there

I’ll be there waiting

I will always love you, I will always stay true

there’s no one who loves you like I do

come to me now

I will never leave you, I will stay here with you

through the good and bad I will stand true

I’m in love with you
now we’re here together, yesterday has passed

life is just beginning, close to you at last

and I promise to you, I will always be there

I give my all to you
living life without you is more than I can bear

hold me close forever

I’ll be there…I’ll be there for you

I will always love you, I will always stay true

there’s no one who loves you like I do

this I promise…

I will never leave you, I will stay here with you

through the good and bad I will stand true

hold me closer…

our love is forever, holding us together

nothing in this world can stop us now
love has found

love has found a way…
I’m in love, I’m in love

yes I’m in love, so in love

I’m in love with you….

~

Does anyone believe in KARMA?

In fact, i do.

“What goes around comes around!”

"Karma is the law of moral cause and effect. You will sometimes hear it used as if it were a punishment. That you will accrue bad karma for something, and have to pay. That you have a karmic debt of some kind or another...."

But, i don't believe in the reincarnation part when i read on.

Initially, i didn't think that it would happen to me. How can there be a retribution? I was wrong. I did something bad to someone once. But a couple of years later, someone else did the same thing to me, this time much worse. But that person got his karma which was worse than mine. And the chain goes on. From that time onwards, i swore not to do anything bad especially to someone who genuinely believes and trusts me. I guess i took things for granted.

I believe these punishments are from God to make us realise the mistakes that we made in our past. It makes us repent and never repeat the same mistake again. Good and bad all at one go. It's a mix of emotions. What's most important is that we've learned. You will not understand what pain is, until you've felt it yourself....

Wake me up! Please let it be a dream, please...

The worst nightmare is yet to come! Seriously! It was just 10 minutes ago that i found out from a close colleague of mine, Y. She told me that the most hypocrite man in the universe will take the vacant seat in one of the higher position in my department. WTF!!!!!!!

I know that i cannot work with him. Enough with all the pretension and the fake "You are going to SHINE there!" and "I care about my staff!". It's going to be a disaster!! He is a great pretender and that have brought him to a higher part of the ladder. When will he ever get his retribution? I know it'll happen someday...i just know it!!

The people from retail are planning for a party to celebrate his lateral movement. And here i am, planning for a funeral coz people here are going to be 'stabbed' by him. Oh boy, how backstabbing is soooo closely linked to his name. He's famous for that and the whole world knows about it. Bloody hell...i wanna burn him alive!

19th August 1984 - In Loving Memory of my late grandmother, Jamilah

These are the only pictures i have of my late grandmother

I was only 7 yrs old when my maternal grandmother passed away. She used to console me whenever my uncles & aunties made me cry. She was the best grandmother i ever had.

Her demise was a great loss. That was the first time i saw someone died in front of my eyes. I remember on the day she passed away, i was crying and imitate like what i saw on TV. I told my grandmother over and over, not to leave me. I only know that if someone passed away, i have to cry and say those words. I even went up to my grandfather and asked "Grandmother just passed away isn't it? Why aren't you crying?" He didn't say a word and cried. At that time, i just couldn't understand what was actually happening. But when i think back, i'm glad that i had 7 years to get to know her. I don't remember much but i know she was the best.

My family and i have not gathered much information about her past and her origin. All we know is that she was adopted by a childless malay lady, my step-great-grandmother who passed away when i was 12. Neighbours told us that my grandmother's parents gave her away. We were also told that her father is Chinese and her mother is Japanese. No one knows for sure. But if this is true, it’s no wonder that she has a mix of Chinese and Japanese features. I even inherited her Chinese eyes. Hehe…

When i watched Full Circle's first episode, i thought it's pretty common to give their children away especially during those difficult times. Target - childless couples. Sounds similiar.

Prayers will be sent to keep your soul at ease...