Monday, November 28, 2005

Back with a pinch...

I know someday, people i know will eventually find out about my blog but i refuse to let that reality influence me. I had to do what i had to do. Maybe i was afraid or maybe i'm really timid. The truth is, DISSENSION is what i'm really afraid of. It's like some kind of a phobia. My hands will tremble if someone shouts at me. To me, i think, it's untreatable. I'll forever be like this. I couldn't stand up for myself. I think i'm a total failure in this aspect of my life.

Gosh! I have to do something about this. But how?

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Sorry peeps...

I had to end this blog because of some personal reasons. But i'll be back...

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Roadshow...

christmas roadshow yesterday - super hot weather - a lot of customers - worked really hard - desperate for sales - cannot afford to visit the toilet - 30 mins lunch - large fan blowing directly at me the whole day (11am-8.30pm) - started sneezing in the afternoon - came home with headache, running nose and sore throat - woke up with a blocked nose - breathing through my mouth most of the time - blaming the fan all night coz unable to come to work today and help at the roadshow - today is validation day - even if i work today, there'll be no sales for me - i guess i won't really lose out - now typing this with a slight headache - my eyes will be closing anytime soon.....

overall target is 175 applications for 2 days - 6 staff - total 150 applications yesterday - average of 25 per staff - i manage to do 36 applications - average of 10-15 mins per customer - fewer customers from 11am-2pm - not bad but i wished i could do more - really quite disappointed coz i wasn't fast enough - must achieve more on next week's roadshow!!

zzz.....

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Chat

No MSN, no ICQ to chat at work so we had to use this software called Sametime. This is one of my daily chats with my colleague, T. Without fail, we'll compare our sales and motivate each other daily. On other occasions, it's just plain crap to de-stress ourselves. But the language we use is totally Singlish.

T: hows your sales? -___-
Me: 4 only...u?
T: 3 -___-
Me: sigh! how to get more sales?
T: dunno, have to sell myself to customers liaos
Me: hahaha
T: u take up from me, i gib u special service -__-
Me: woohoo...special svc ah!!
T: *0*
Me: dun let your wife know, haha..
T: lol...yeahh yeah
T: wait charge underage molest

Me: no lah, maybe your cust all old old one leh...
T: den i will say, service your grand daughter
T: if u hab any..
Me: lol....and must be pretty
T: lol! yes

...
...
...
T: eh i got onli 4 take up till now
T: how how how...die lah this mth
Me: i just got another one oso...i think the comm for this month not so good
T: last month already very jialat...this mth worse. must do something to motivate liaos
Me: yah...last month not as good as sept...i hope the roadshow will at least help us to achieve like september
T: hopefully! u doin both roadshow?
Me: yup...u?
T: both...sianz! i think i am the most hardcore...wrk 4 days...sianz
Me: i work 3 days
T: lol...den u consider hardcore also le...hahahaha
T: blacklisted cases how
Me: blacklisted cases cannot do.. tell the customer to go home
Me: haha

T: n sleep...zzz
T: lol
Me: lol
T: "nbcb pay 1st b4 u come dun waste my fcukin time!!"
T: can say tht bo?
Me: can if u want...haha
T: lol
T: take down their no. at nite call them at public phones
Me: haha...night biz huh
T: hear till blur blur
T: kena fcuk for nothing at nite
Me: hahaha...no sale, still kena fcuk
Me: not worth it...lol


See...it's all crap! And I'm so bo liao publishing this on my blog...

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

It’s time I let it out…

An incident last Sunday has somewhat made me a little unhappy. I know it’s bad for me to say this but I cannot help it anymore. Someone in my family I used to hate so much has done something to make me hate him again. Previously, he lied to me once and then there were many more lies after that but I still believed him. It amuses him that I still believed what he told me. I felt like I was made fun of and my stupidity was a joke to him. Till one day I was so mad that I didn’t acknowledge him when he came to my house. I didn’t even want to look at his face. Later, I told my sis,” I will never speak to him again until he apologise to me!!!” But that took him a long time just to say the word ‘sorry’. Why is it so hard to apologise huh? Ego? Is that it?

Then last Sunday, when R was teaching my 14 years old cousin, H, how to use the guitar tuner, he took the guitar away from R and started to tune the guitar. I know he has excellent guitar skills but that doesn’t mean R is not as good. Was he trying to show off his skills in front of R? I was mad but I didn’t want to create a scene. In fact, H personally told me that he wanted R to help and not BIL. And I think R and H have never spoken to each other before. Funny huh! H and his 2 younger brothers are so close to me that they’d rather be with me than BIL. That was probably why he trusted me and R more than my BIL. And the fact that my cousins love me, they will love R too.

Anyway, I told my parents before that I don’t really like BIL since the lying incident. That was actually the time I started to dislike him and his childish attitude. He’s always that irritating sometimes. If you know him long enough, you’ll know. However, I can never avoid him totally coz he’s already a part of my family.

R, I apologise for his rudeness...

Monday, November 14, 2005

Bloody B****

Oh man!! I’ve just been screwed by a customer. Not totally my fault though! It was agreed that they will raise the $70 credit adjustment for the customer in early October. But they only did it a week ago. Now the customer is fuming mad because she said that I didn’t honour my word. Bloody hell! Don’t you think that it’s unfair for me? The information passed down to me was not correct and the fact that they raised the adjustment too late makes me mad also. Bottom line, customer didn’t care if the finance screwed up. She blamed everything on me. ME AND ONLY ME!!!!! I hate this kind of customer. Ultimately, she’ll still get her $70 what!! What more does she want? Sigh!! I’m beginning to hate this job!

Seriously, I have no mood to work today. Usually, I will not talk to my colleagues in the morning and I'll keep to myself and do my work quietly for about 1-2 hours max. But today, I think, it's going to last the whole day. I hate Monday blues. After much thought, I think I know what's making me feel this way. And it's not my customers...

Sunday, November 13, 2005

The wait

I waited for slightly more than 1 ½ hours last Saturday. I walked and walked till my feet hurts. I was really intending to pull a long face when he comes. At that time, I thought I wanted to show that side of me. Oh well, I didn’t blame him though. He has valid reasons. But the funny thing is, upon seeing him, my frustrations just went away. That’s the beauty of love, I guess!! Hmm. Come to think of it, I was more frustrated coz I walked too much and developed blisters on my foot. I should’ve just looked for a café nearby and wait, but I didn’t. So, now I blame the blisters for everything.

Anyway, I had a great time with darling and some of my family members today. Although, only 4 of my mom’s brothers and sisters came, it was really fun. I gave credit to my mom and dad who made it all happen. Having an ‘open house’ really takes a lot of work. I shall stop for now coz I desperately need my much deserved good night’s sleep.

Nitezzzz…

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Balik Kampung...



I’m back! All 10 of us went back to my uncle’s place at Kampung Parit Patah, Pontian, Johor. It’s been a few years since I went back to visit and that going back makes this festive season feels more complete. This uncle of mine lived in this Kampung all his life. When my great-grandmother was still around, she took care of him till she passed away when I was 12 years old. Then, the Kampung was so much different from now. There were more chickens running around but not now. It seems like the essence is fading away slowly.

We left at about 3.30pm on Friday afternoon and reached exactly at 5pm. I used to think that our Kampung is so far away and the journey would take at least 3 hours. I guess the new route helped us to save more time on the road. But my uncle took a longer route home and it took us about 2 ½ hours to get home.



This is the house that used to be made of wood with cement floors & zinc rooftops. Ever since my uncle got married he did a lot of renovations to the house and it looked so good now. It’s clean and no more that dirty cement floor with rubber tiles. There used to be 2 toilets outside the house, one for shower and the other for you know what. It’s so convenient now that everything’s in the house. No more holding on to our bowels and wait for the next morning when it’s brighter. And the shower used to have frogs hopping around while I was bathing. Eeewww…Then a few years back, my grandfather actually built another house beside it but i've forgotten to take a pic. Oops! So we stayed at my grandfather's house throughout our stay there.


My cousins on a bridge that used to be made of wood. Something like the pic on the right. But ours was too old with a lot of holes. Hahaha...



On Friday night, we played firecrackers. It was a lot of fun, especially for the kids. I think we bought at least 10 different types of firecrackers. There’s the usual one, the one that would shoot like a rocket and the tiny ones that would pop when you throw it to the ground. OMG! I think that night I went totally deaf. We played for at least 2 hours, non-stop. Slept at around midnight and it was then that i felt totally homesick. I was thinking of R till i fell asleep. It's not like I've never been out of town for a long time. And this is only one night. What was i thinking?

Next day, while I was still in the house lazing around watching TV, I heard a commotion outside.
Cousin: Eeee…there’s a snake in the drain?
Aunty: Where? That’s not a snake! It’s a worm!!
Cousin: A worm?? No lah, it’s a snake…..you see carefully!
Aunty: (a long pause) Oh ya! It’s a snake…



When I heard this, I went out with my O2 and took some pics. So there you go, the pic of a black snake with orange stripes. It’s probably as long as 30 cm. No one dares to get rid of the snake, so we spared its life and let it live. Later my uncle told us that he caught 5 lizards using his bare hands and killed it. The lizards in my Kampung are not as tiny as those house lizards we see here. It’s HUGE! I’ve seen one before. It’s black and it has a long tail. It would lift its body up and tiptoe across the room. Can u imagine, it is as long as the black snake. And it would make a knocking sound on the cupboards using its tail to warn the other lizards not to come out. I guess my uncle must have studied the lifestyle of these lizards. OMG! I’m having goose pimples now.



Anyway, we visited only 3 houses that day. And I gave away 30 green packets. They have an average of 10 kids per house. **sweat** But then all the food was great there! Even this simple tapioca dish is so darn delicious.



At one of my relative’s house, there’s this REALLY rusty old swing and my cousins and I had a lot of fun with it. They also have a few adorable cats that would run around in and out of the house, and making my lil cousins went running for their lives. Haha. I took a pic of this adorable blue-eyed kitten. So cute right!




I was there for only 2 days, 1 night but I felt so tired. But I should be going back there soon, I hope!

Friday, November 04, 2005

Salam Lebaran

Eid Mubarak!! Maaf Zahir & Batin...
To my beloved family and friends. Not forgetting to all my Muslim bloggermates and those who drop by but did not leave your footprints behind.
P.S. I'll be outta town. Will be back soon! :o)

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

To all Hindus....